It’s been 2 weeks since I posted anything, and 2 MONTHS since I’ve posted anything actually useful, ie. a pattern. I’ve finally put my foot down, and decided that I’m not going to take anymore of my own shit anymore. No more excuses! I will try to overcome Past Abi and all her nonsense!
(I am referencing, of course, this comic by Tim Kreider:
"This was the specific, recurring instance through which I noticed that my life was being insidiously subverted by a shadowy nemesis whose sole agenda seemed to be to thwart and ridicule me: my own past self. Sometimes it was my self of the very recent past, even of the night before, tantalizingly just out of reach of my vengeance, smirking at me as I had to clean out the French press first thing in the morning. But once he’d been implicated in this minor malfeasance, I began to recognize Past Tim’s malignant handiwork everywhere, and realized that he had been plotting my ruin for decades. Earnest, hardworking Present Tim applies for a suitable position, only to find his best efforts sabotaged by that unrepentant loafer, Past Tim, who’s squandered his life in the pursuit of petty lusts and vices. The scope of his malice here becomes evident: he means nothing less than to reduce me to penury and obscurity, to leave me a pauper and a laughingstock. Past Tim is not just some sort of amusing nuisance or mischievous imp, but a mortal enemy to be feared—and, if possible, destroyed. But alas, Past Tim remains forever untouchable by revenge, evading the laws of earthly justice and karma, always laughing down at me from the uphill side of causality. Instead I must take my impotent vengeance on Future Tim, thereby becoming the very villain I despise. I should make it clear that it is my future self who is forced, for reasons best left obscure, to wear the little sailor suit, and that it is I who must call this woman "Daddy," rather than vice versa. (This incident is a pure invention by the author, needless to say, and reflects no actual persons or events.) And so the cycle of violence continues: the eternal tormentor, Past Tim, inflicting insult after injury upon his only available victim, Future Tim, learning, as someone once said, nothing."
- Tim Kreider on the Huff. Post on his comic “Past Tim” in his book “We Learn Nothing”
He’s an awesome cartoonist and essayist; if you haven’t seen any of his stuff, I highly recommend it!)
Anyway, digression aside, I’ve decided to give myself this more or less fixed schedule-y/deadline-y thing so that I have a structured thing to adhere by, and since I’m telling you guys about it here, I will be more compelled to comply by this new set of self-enforced rules. And basically, this fixed schedule-y/deadline-y thing is actually really just this one rule: I have to post something on every Thursday on every week of every month of every year I decide to keep this blog going. Of course if I feel like it I can post MORE than once a week, although I doubt the frequency of such occurrences will be high.
EDIT: School workload has proven this impossible if I want to keep up my grades. This has now been amended to be once every three Thursdays. Hey, better than what it used to be, guys.
So yeah that was basically all I wanted to say in this post. Sorry for taking up space on your dash.
Since Thursday is already over for this week, I’ll start this rule thing next Thursday (is this more procrastination? Probably :D). But it is extremely likely that I kinda sort of maybe have about a handful of probably four or so half-written patterns in my drafts folder, so I may finish one by tomorrow to make up for this nonsense post.